Thursday, December 31, 2009

The first physical signs and effects of anorexia are:

  • Loss of menstrual periods
  • Lack of energy and weakness
  • Feeling cold all the time
  • Dry, yellowish skin
  • Constipation and abdominal pain
  • Restlessness and insomnia
  • Dizziness, fainting, and headaches
  • Growth of fine hair all over the body and face
You see. right under constipation. restlessness and insomnia. Why we can't sleep. Its Ana not the blogs.lol.


So I can't completely fast I have to eat roast beef at the end of new year so here's my plan.

today(family dinner). I'll have half an apple 47.5
some of the roast beef 70
apple cider no wine for me :) 125
3 fork fulls of side salad 30

I'll be doing some exercise 711

consumed. 272.5
burned. 711
regularly burned. 2000


See my plan :)

I don't know whats happening tomorrow but i guess I'll assume its a fast.

stay super strong, pro Ana and anti food,
XoX Hannie (special thanks to BlAnCh )

ps. put some thinspo on my i pod yay. pretty pictures

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

holiday fast

Today went grate. Okay so everyone how about a new year fast all the way to Jan 2? huh what do you say? we'll start the year thin.

hmm. no scale. collarbones in sight and miley cirus?

Okay odd tittle but here I'll explain in order.
weighed my self after yesterdays expected to be binge(which it was not). my scale said 50. I was like wow. Not even the tiniest people weigh that little. so I tried again 10. some babies weigh that much. So I'll admit it I was having fun being (feeling) so lite. Then my scale (broken scale that is) when all the way to 396. So I was pissed. But I knew it was broken. I know for a fact that if i hadn't seen all those tiny weights i would probably have believed that's how much I weighed. So I'll ask for a brand new one. :) (digital one)

Collarbones they're not very prominent but their in sight.

And this morning my dad had the radio on. In English cause he's trying to better his English. His unlike mine isn't very clear. If you heard me speak you'd think English is my only and first language. Yeas i took the freedom to be conceded.
Back to the subject. The climb by Miley Cyrus started playing and it just made me feel stronger. That's hilarious I don't really like miley so yeah.

I love all the support i get from you guys. Thanks.

This post isn't over yet not done bugging you guys. I'm not going to fast even if i sorta binged yesterday. I'm going to have tiny meals to avoid a binge and heres my biggest tool http://ana-recipe-book.xanga.com/. yup an ana recipe book ironic but they are low cal and really good.

Also does any one watch Important things with Demetri martin. So just in case I'm the only loser who has watched this show here's the link to a clip. http://www.comedycentral.com/videos/index.jhtml?videoId=219163&title=power-me-versus-you
So he pretty much has things like.
me the SAT, you high school football player
me gravity, you old lady's tits.

So I was like
me gigantic brownies you, Henrietta on diet.

That brings me to my name...I hate Its a grandma name and its my real name. if my mom had been i single mother and took her last name i would be Henrietta Gaybird. yup interesting enough My initials are still H.G. I like Gray.

So I'm just babbling.

Oh wait. yesterday I couldn't sleep. Does that come with ana or these blogs lol. so I decided to do this.

lie down.
close your eyes. picture your hang out area or what ever place you like to go.
heres the hard part.
add friends or boy friend.
add your self. try your hardest to make it the thin tiny you in your favorite outfit.
keep that in your mind. that's your goal
a tiny beautiful person. every time you feel weak picture that scenery. You look so happy so pretty.

love, Henrietta
PS. my first picture on here



http://i75.photobucket.com/albums/i311/what_a_girl_eats/d14c9146.jpg i like her :) i don't want to eat when she's around. I'm not just pro ana I'm anti food.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I'm going to be honest I had burger king I'm a failure. I think I'm going to binge I'm really hugry I'm. sorry for failing I'm really sorry. I ate 1480 cals. 763 more than planned. I burned 533 on my step climber. So its like i ate 947. still to much my dear anas Im going to binge on lettuce or something I sorry. I think I'll just divide 435 by six so I'm eating 72 cal meals. it'll stop my bingeing I'm sorry guy I failed and now I'm goning to eat while crying. I know I'm disgusting I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry.I'm sorry... I failed.
I'm gonna get a twitter i update too often right now I'm gonna be taken out for ice cream so I'll try to refuse that.
thanks for the comment Y'all. Today I'm gonna fast i don't really feel like working out (lazy fat ass).
but It's like 48 degrees were i live so hope fully not wearing a sweater will make some of the calories i could have burned. Maybe I'll do some sleeping. According to broken mirrors you burn a lot of cals sleeping.
Okay so i am of Latin decent so we have tacos and a bunch other yummy stuff. And also its common in this culture to think women have to have meat on their bones and curves. So i often get compliments on my legs from family but to tell you the truth they make me feel even fatter. they dont help me much. right now my brother told me to eat breakfast. I'm just having tea zero cals sugar free. my fast is still going. :) talk to y'al later.

Monday, December 28, 2009

Failure

failure major failure I don't even want to know how much cals i consumed no use making it a binge

The start...I guess

So if I start some kind of blog it''ll help me concentrate, i think. so this is well a pro ana blog :) . kinda I'm not ana but i fallow i few tips ant trick of their and i will offer support for those who need it. just messege me
Okay...this is hard, opening up like this is hard.

Not too long ago i started to realize...I'm fat. I want to be skinny no not a "healthy weight" i want to be skinny.
So here's my plan. 30 lbs by march
week 1. 727
week 2. 705
week 3. 683
week 4. 661
week 5. 639
week 6. 616
week 7. 595
week 8. 547

That's a lot of cals but i'm trying to make it look like i eat well maybe even a lot.
my parentS
will notice to easily so yup.
to day I've had
a spoonful of cereal (my dad was watching) 47 cal
two sour punch straws (damn temptation) 50 cals
total 97 out of 435 (what i'm really really allowing my self)

I also used to be but it's amlost been a month since my last cutting thingy.

not to long ago i was saved from a total binge by the song paper bag by fionna apple.

oh and here are my tools for weight loss.

My air climber

the mirror

elle mags

and this blog :)

loves, Henrietta

mayo is my enemie