Saturday, January 22, 2011

I want it...

I will get it
i will kill for it
if i have to

I will get it
i wil light my self on fire for it

I will be thin I declare war against my body.

No one will keep from it i don't care if the two guys i love are running around with other girls i will stab my feeling for the until they are dead. Its me myself and I now. I will work for my self and i.

fuck anyone who thinks they can stop me...
I don't have much but this is something i wont live without

Saturday, January 15, 2011

im going to tell you guys

about what happened yesterday.

so some little fucker with no balls called me fat.

i knew that...i dont need him to point it out.

i had never done something to him,ever. heck i was one of the few who could tolerate his nonsense.

ill admit it this made me want to be skinny so bad.

we weren't fighting. He just did it to be dick.

so i guess
it didn't kill me
so it must have mad me stronger.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Thursday, January 13, 2011

i was called fat...

im upset. not even 5% of my thoughts make it to my blog

im sorry

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

i want to be thin

i want that so bad
to be fragile
to be pretty
to be so damn thin
i want to be skinny

i want that but i'm not even sure how anymore.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

just random

is anyone else mad that seventies fashion is coming back at least here in the us that all over the magazines. I mean i kinda liked the 80's thing we had going on oh well that sucks.

All so the bright lips nude eyes is back i kinda liked that trend oh and the bright eye shadow and nude lips. i like those trends :)
also the fringe is back yay. but it feels like they say that every year.

so make an appointment with your hairstylist and pull out the cherry red lipstick.

ugh also I'm not very thrilled about floral prints but my style is versatile so i can live with it..

WHY THE HELL AM I TALKING FASHION THIS IS NOT A FASHION BLOG. oh well you guys will have to deal with it.


The funny thing is i plan to major in mythology. lol

heres my shopping list for the mall.

1 gel eyeliner. (i'm out and liquid sucks)
2 brown shimmery shadow. (a Hanrietta essential)
3 bright eyeshadow palette. (yay)
4 a bright red sparkley lip gloss.(anyone know a good one?)

ok so i have to go im sure my next post will be a proper i promise.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

sorry i was gone soooo long

Not that anybody cares...

wow crazy week... this is my last vacation day i need a haircut....

so some where around Christmas i met this guy. don't you dare get fucking giddy on me.
cuz we might be boyfriend and girlfriend but i honestly don't care for him...at all. call me ungrateful call me whatever the hell you want (potty mouth much?). But i guess i don't really think theres going to be anything involving boys much in my year anyways so its not like i'm missing out on anything by being with this guy hes just there to be a thing (hahaha i'm such a bitch). since i'm going going to be motherless for a few months cuz my mom going to mexico...my dad doesn't give a fuck about what i do so im a free bitch did i mention i turn 18 in April.... yeah im bringing hell to 2011.

what will i do to celebrate...not much probably punch some babies just kidding i love babies.

so how was your guys's new year mine was what ever...

im gunna make a bunch of random list now

new years resolutions
1 lose weight and get down to a bmi of 20 at the most
2 find a cute guy (not that the guy i'm with is ugly hes just..not my type not artsy enough)
3 help out my friends band more instead of always lying that i have a sore throat so i don't have to be lead singer cuz i'm self conscious about my body.
4 dedicate some more time to blogger geesh.
5 stop wearing flats and move on to high heels becouse im not baby doggy any more (inside joke ill explain later)
6 graduate OMG i almost forgot i have to work my ass and tits off to graduate cuz ive been doing some major slacking off

good shit that happened in 2010
1 i switched my lame loser friend for my cooler much more betterer friends that make me want to do good in school.
2 lost 20 pounds which proves i can do it

bad shit that happened
1 totally did horrible at school
2 last 20 but gained 30
3 was betrayed by my so called friends so i left them.

my expectations for 2011
none
i don't want to expect anything really.

so going back to school tomorrow in the middle of the week which i find odd.

i found my camera.....
but im too fat for pictures
random goal weight without specific time 114 lbs

oh now to explain the baby doggy joke my friend was like saying how my dog was such a cute puppy and then i said we were all like that at some point but i meant we were all cute little babies and the he goes oh we were al little baby doggies. its funnier at the time its one of those you had to be there things

ok so im of to do nothing and be a wierdo and be fat and tweigh my self and cry then make fun jessi sloughter and then be a thingy or some thing random rambling im totally braind dead must be from watching too many cartoons like a seven year old now im going tro go sing a random song