an other ana with a graphic post

I had a BF...then we broke up.


while together I felt pretty and happy with my self.



I went far with him. No.not sex.
I just thought it would be dandy to give this guy head.
I have a little friend who's a tech wiz. She made my blogger profile but she doesn't know about ana.
she's losing weight like crazy. she's only twelve. I'm like a big sis to her.


I asked if she was eating right. She is. and eating alot. :(


Maybe I took my relationship to quickly.


Had we made it to valentines day...let's just say i wouldn't be a virgin...


that goes to show the whore I am.
I feel fat..again.

I feel fat, Dirty And like a bitch.
I bet you guys thought i wasn't this dirty. I don't go around town but I really liked this guy.

my thoughts in random words: head, scale, failing grades, and a dirty fat hoe.



I feel depressed he made me very happy...


What now?

Activia

activia 110

It doesn't hurt me. You wanna feel how it feels? You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?

I love this place and i recommend it for you http://proanalifestyle.blogspot.com

have any of you seen the movie day breakers. I loved it. I'm gonna lose weight lots of it you'l see

No more drama.

Got a mirror in my room. :)

Got apples. :)

Got peanut butter.:(

No more doughnuts... cuz i ate them. :(

Getting a pet rat. :)

I'm going to survive on apple's. : 3

Any one else tired of drama?

I know I am and I'm going on emotion less for as long as I can.

...welcome back numbness

I really like the band placebo you guys should try them out along some of these

Muse
Breathe Carolina
cold war kids
elefant
arctic monkeys
The fratellis
Kasaibian
The riffles


Not thinspo but I thought you'd guys learn a bit about who I am.

NO more drama or lies.

Sitting in front of a mirror is pure pain.

"So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?"

Expect blank things from me.
I won't be pitying people much
I will post.

I won't be human for a while...I'll be some thing else something blank

something dead.. or almost dead.

a floating body a corpse.

A spirit or a demon...

I'm scared

There are doughnuts in the kitchen and I'm scared. I don't want the but my body does

bipolar post

Tue. I realized this semester schedule sucked. but No cooking class!yay!
wed. Wow. i feel energeless. Oh and square dancing the want to take us to 3rd grade again.
thur. great got home purged for the first time in a long time.
fri. binged.

AND TODAY...
clean slate.
And having partner that's shorter than you. is defeminizing. I like my second partner. he's tall he'll turn me when needed. I'm not eating until 2:24

AND I NEED A HUGE FAVOR CAN YOU GUYS WRITE ME POEMS.
I know I have to write 4 by tue but i suck at poetry.
Not about ana please. just about random stuff.
y four poems?1 for each
1. metaphors
2.similes
3.onomatopoeia
4. alliteration

So if you guys are sweet enough please help me I know its cheating. just tell me for which one you wrote for. please help me. the moment he handed out our assignment i wanted to shoot my self.

School is seriously stressing me out. I've seen my guy with tons of other gals it it kills me.
I don't a have fucking scale. it would be nice to my fucking progress!!!!!!!!!!!!! or non progress

I just feel like running in my closet and screaming in to my pillow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


On a happier note(totally bipolar second). my parents are thinking of buying a house in the outskirts of town. Which is great as long as i get to stay at my school. but its also grate cuz it means animal. My brother will get a huge manly dog he wants. And I'll get a cute little king Charles cavalier spaniel.
so... thank for reading my blog guys I love your support and I'll support you.
love, Hannie

she's here

I can feel her, ana. she's deep in me. I want the bliss of being under weight

I'm ignoring ana a little today. not going to binge but i will feast on otter pops
like only 3 or 4 only
only 15 cals each and you burn cals cuz they are frozen

of to school i'll tell y'all later
only a little time for some thinspo

status

my inner status
"As the headache fades, this house is no longer a home,
don't give up on the dream, don't give up, ont he wanting,
and everything that's true.
don't give up on the dream, don't give up on the wanting.."
cause i want you - placebo

I've been gone for a long time

so i went to the beach on Friday. no swimsuit just old jeans it freezing cold
school starts tomorrow. means exercise and no eating till 2:24.
I have to give my cat a bath and convince my parents to let her back in side.
I can give her my food. And if i snack she always wants half of what i eat there for less cals consumed. I also miss her. lol

This is my brightest idea of the year. I'm doing good. But I'm not going to be on here for awhile cuz of my cat project and school. Also i will see my crush (childish I know) and seeing him with his girl will totally make me feel like crap so i won't eat. yay. lol

I thrive on my own self pity.

pic of my cat wouldn't hurt she's not thinspo but hey she's cute












Also what Ana doesn't love twiggy.












lol it looks like my cats looking at twiggy.
stay srong,pro ana and anti food!
xoxhannie

ps. I'm starting to like that. hannie. once again super thanx to BlAnCh

First post of the year.

happy new year.

SO my resolutions.

lose 16 by feb.
lose 95 by sept
lose